I DON'T FEEL SO GOOD .
Aug 9, 2010 18:40:07 GMT -5
Post by kody on Aug 9, 2010 18:40:07 GMT -5
I'M TANGLED UP INSIDE - - - - - -
AND MY HEART IS ON MY SLEEVE, TOMORROW IS A MYSTERY TO ME
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THIS POST WAS MADE FOR NOBODY/OPEN AND IT WAS COMPLETE WITH 537 WORDS, I HOPE YOU LIKE IT. LUCIA IS ROCKIN' THIS OUTFIT, LOOKING LIKE A STAR. THE BANNER WAS MADE BY WILMETTA @ CAUTION, AND THE LYRICS ARE FROM THE SELENA GOMEZ SONG THE WAY I LOVE YOU. NOTES: CLOSED TO FIRST REPLIER!
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to lucia, canada was a nasty disgusting place and she really didn't want to be there. there was nothing wrong with canada, but the people she worked with. most of the other actors didn't understand why she wanted to go home so badly. the major problem was that her and the director were on horribly bad terms. all they did was harasse each other, because they had dirt on one another, although the information lucia held was worth much more simply because nobody suspected any of it. ace knew for sure that lucia was having a relationship with her bodyguard, and any body that paid even a spec of attention to pop culture knew that was probably true, but the problem lucia had was that if a source reveiled that the two did have a realtionship, vince would be fired and she would have a difficult time ever getting to see him again and all of theire plans for the future would be ruined. before vince, lucia had been an extremely lonely person, she was actually very cut off from the world, and she never wanted friends for the sake of having friends. her family didn't live near her, and those were the only people she had ever truely cared about.
most people didn't know this about lucia. they just assumed she was personable, because of her work. but really on set, if she didn't like a person, she avoided them, or if she didn't avoid them, she would make it clear that she wished she had. tristan was her set buddy, and that was basically it. every moment she got frustrated on set, she wanted people to know why, so they wouldn't just think she was having a hissy fit or was on her period, and it wasn't like vince could just make it better, because they "weren't together". just looking at ace frustrated lucia, so when he yelled at her for fucking up a scene or something, it frustrated her even more. then her ex-husband had recently been added into the mix, and he couldn't leave her alone either. there was way too much testosterone on set, and it was literally driving her mad. jack bailey had recently came for a visit as well, and since he had deemed tristan a "burden" he had been on her shit list too. she wanted to curl up into a ball and cry, just to get rid of all the frustration.
it was hard to be around a cast of people and still feel lonely at the same time. they had filmed into the evening hours and the sun was setting and the director had called it a day. she had retired off to her trailer, after going to the costume department and changing back into her regular clothes. she sat on the steps with her elbows on her knees, and her hands balled into fists that were holding her head as she slouched over. deep into thought she stared down at the dirt on the ground in front of her. usually everyone would've been leaving the lot to their hotels for the night. but lucia wasn't tired, and that was really all the hotel was for, right?