, i'd rather pretend

[seth]

the after lunch snooze was the time that seth did his thinking. all of it. he thought about loads of stuff, most of it having no relevance in anything he would do or had done that day. most of it was just random musing. he had started to think about his feelings a lot though. about friends. about wanting a girlfriend. about who it could be. about gwen. gwen had been on his mind a lot. he loved his best friend, and he though thats all it was - that they were best friends, and thats why he liked her so much. but after not seeing her for a few years he wasnt sure if that friendly love had developed into something more. it was more than harmless crush, if there was anything there at all. gwen was a beautiful, talented girl. she always had been. she could sing, she could act. seth had hated prom without her. they had always said they would go to prom with eachother, but shed moved. now, when seth thought about that night, he realised he had missed her too much. he was glad he had her back around now. it was just easier having someone he knew he could trust with everything near him. of course, he had bandit and graham, but gwen was a different class of friends. she was in a different league. she was like a sister. although not, because having a crush on a sister would be wrong. seriously wrong.

deciding whether to let gwen know about his feelings was difficult though. hed heard that it was obvious she liked him, but he couldnt see it. at all. the way she was with him was how she always had been in high school and stuff. if she did, then she always had had a crush on him the whole time hed known her. and he doubted it was possible to have a crush on someone, but nothing back from the other person, for such a long time. he knew he hadnt liked someone for longer than a month if he hadnt at least made out with her. he signed onto the chat room to see if she was online, and she was. he loved talking to her. it was easy to talk to her because they knew everything, or almost everything, about each other. they just got on. if seth told her about how he felt he could, potentially, ruin that friendship. and he really didnt want to do that. it would ruin him too. he couldnt live with that. that made him think he shouldnt tell her about his feelings. but then again. what if what he had heard was true and gwen did like seth too. then they could, you know, be together? seth was chatting to gwen and had asked when she was going to lose her innocence. he was being cheeky, asking things that were really none of his business. girl stuff, really, but he wasnt completely sure she understood which innocence he meant. he asked who was good enough, and she said herself. surely she would have hinted that she liked him then? but no. he asked her over. just to spend time with her. as friends. and he didnt know whether he would tell her tonight. he also didnt know if his fondness for her was visible through their chatting. he kept finding himself being pretend mean to her, just so she didnt get the wrong idea. but they do say that the first sign of love is nastiness. so maybe he should have just been himself. he was being himself though.

it was just after seven that night, the time he had arranged for gwen to come over to his apartment. he was excited. he loved spending time with her. there was the potential, too, that after tonight he would no longer be single. he would be rid of his cheating ex girlfriend for good. he would have a good, genuine girl he knew he could get on with and trust completely. he had had the whole afternoon to decide whether to tell her and he had decided that, eventually, he would. he thought he might tell her as they ate. or just casually slip it into a conversation mid movie or something. he wasnt completely sure when. but he knew he was going to tonight. and he would either gain a girlfriend, or lose a best friend. he wanted to have both - a girlfriend and a best friend, hopefully the same person, too. but he would have to wait and see. just then his buzzer sprang into life and he pressed the 'answer' button. "hey, gwen? if thats gwen come on up." he was so close to adding, 'if not then dont, i dont want to see anyone else tonight'. but if it was gwen shed think he was weird - not that he didnt doubt she did already. he unlocked the electric door and went back to the kitchen/bar thing in the middle of the apartment. he took out two glasses, they were kind of wine glasses but they werent glass. they were brightly coloured, hard wearing plastic. in case he dropped them. he got out a nice bottle of red wine too that he kept for special occasions, because it got him drunk quickly and he didnt really like the taste, but he thought gwen might. he started to pour the deep red liquid into the glasses when his door opened. he smiled broadly. tonight was the night.

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so the post is complete and is made up of 931 words. the post is closed to gwen / dayna . seth is wearing this and hes looking fly. the lyrics are from ellie goulding. just to let you know, i'm so excited for these two.

[gwen]

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this post is tagged for seth harper aka jack and this post is complete, and it meets all the requirements with 960 words. gwen is looking like fly chick wearing this. these graphics are by dayna and the lyrics are by the artist we call mario. notes: haha, so cute. and i made my post just as long as yours xD

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lately gwen pastino had been overwhelmed with everything going on in her life. she was a working actress both on broadway and in movies, on top of it all she was juggling school and her friendships. after graduating from her performing arts high school she immediately packed her bags and headed to the city of dreams and talent, new york. even at a young age new york was where gwen knew she wanted to be. she saw posters of new york in all of the local stories, and instead of taking vacations to warm destinations like the bahamas, los angeles, or miami, gwen's parents took her to new york, where she saw her first broadway show, and she fell in love. she was going to be singing, dancing, and acting her heart out on broadway, that was her goal. she took dancing lessons, voice lessons, and acting lessons at a very young age. she was also starting her resume early, appearing in a view local stage productions with theatre companies in her area. she started becoming a star in her single digits. but being trapped her little community didn't give her much creative freedom. high school was a drag because most of the people she stumbled upon had no direction in life, they were just going through the motions of day to day life not knowin where they were headed, and that frustrated to hell out of gwen. she knew she was going to be a performer when she could add and subtract. but still among all of these high school losers, gwen met her best friend, seth harper. he was confused, neglected, a high school football player unhappy and needing some joy in his life. gwen ended up talking to him, and while he continued with football she also got him into acting. he had a talent that she wasn't going to let be wasted on sports. you don't sing in sports!

sadly she had left her best friend ever, seth harper alone to fend for himself in the dark world of high school. she transferred to a performing arts school where her talent would be better appreciated and where she could also develope herself and strengthen her talents. there was constant competition and it kept her focused on her goal. before transferring she had it easy. the star of every stage production with nobody to steal her spotlight. at the performing arts school, she could become more. when she moved to new york she found seth again, and this time she wasn't going to leave him and she was not going to let him go. she loved him, as a best friend and definitely as something more. she had liked him in a romantic way since the first time she had met him. he was so open to talking with her, a football playing hunk stepped out of what he knew to experience something new with her, and she couldn't get over it. the feelings for him never went away, even when they were apart all of those years. she regretted transferring, leaving him, because she thought about him everyday, and wished that either he was there with her or that she had never left. in new york they had made friends together and watched each others success grow. she loved it.

even though gwen knew that they would probably never be together, she still had hope, and she tried her hardest to look good for him. she tried to impress everyone of course, but the only person she really wanted to notice was seth. getting dressed that night she threw on a dress. it was made of cotton, but had a sheer pink layer of fabric with metallic silver sequin stripes over it. it was short, but it covered what it needed to, and she could sit comfortably in it without showing the goods. she paired it with a gray button down blazer, that she left open. on her feet were a pair of shiny pastel blue heels. her hair was left down and wavy, like usual, and her make-up was very minimal. it was a sassy casual type of look. she brought nothing along with her, she wouldn't be here long, or at least she always assumed so. she stepped up to seth's door and rang the bell. she heard his voice and chuckled to herself. he sounded kind of excited. she opened the door quietly, and listened to it click shut behind her as she walked in. the apartment wasn't huge, it just had a lot of corners. so rounded them all, from the front room, to the living room, and finally into the kitchen where she found her bestie. suddenly she was confused. red wine? he was underage, and so was she. she considered herself a straight edge. didn't drink, didn't smoke, didn't fuck. well she had tried smoking, hated it, and she had drank before and hated how that tasted too. and she didn't have sex simply because she was saving herself for seth. "trying to get me drunk?" she questioned, with a whiny tone to her voice. she stood on the other side of the kitchen island where he was pouring drinks. "i think i need that protective bubble now." she teased with a small smile on her face. sure she'd try red wine, simply because she hadn't tasted it before, but she knew that she wouldn't like it. whatever happened she would lead by seth's example. if he drank, she would too, despite the rancid flavor. gwen walked around the island and wrapped her arms around her best friends waist. usually she would have attacked him, but this was much more calm and loving. "i'm only kidding. it's nice to see you seth."

[seth]

seth looked forward to spending time with gwen. and tonight definitely wasnt any different for him. they just got on, you know? like best friends should. but every now and again he thought he felt a spark between the two of them. it was nice, something he could grasp for when he was sad or feeling lonely. because gwen wanted him, as a friend, that is. and he loved having her as a friend too but was kind of excited to see if things would go further. tonight. as his best friend walked up to him he smiled. she was hot. no, she was beatiful. he loved it when she wore her hair like that, it was long and made her look even more elegant than normal. he found it difficult to find faults with her. she was amazingly talented, pretty, an amazing friend and trustworthy. as she spoke, he made a surprised sort of face. "damn, you found me out!" he laughed, he hadnt planned on getting her drunk really. but now he thought of it, being drunk would probably be better when he confessed his feelings to her. "um, i could pop a bubble gwen." he felt her arms wrap around his waist and honestly felt like turning round and just kissing her. he tilted his head to the side, so their faces were pretty much touching. he smelled her hair, perfection. he wished he had the balls just to lay the lips on her, but it would be total embarassment if she stopped him, or turned away. he smiled though, he doubted she could see his smile, which comforted him in a way. it shielded him from her finding out. although he wanted her to.

"its always nice seeing me gwen. and its lovely to see you." he laughed, always the joker. the nervous, cowardly joker unable to share what he wanted with a girl. yet in his football days he could stop some of the fastest and stongest guys on the opposing team. it hurt him more now, the fact that he had lost that strength, than when the guys used to ram into him on the field. it was life though, something he accepted as the norm. he lifted his wine to his lips after moving away from gwen. he reluctantly took a sip, the taste was not pleasant, and tried to hide the fact that when the deep red liquid trickled onto his tongue he whinced. he wanted to just not drink it, but he figured it was quite a sophisticated drink. and gwen was sophisticated, so he assumed she would like it. come to think of it though, he hadnt been drinking with gwen before. he suddenly felt bad, what if she didnt actually drink and even though they were best friends he didnt know. that would be embarassing too. he could feel tonight was just going to be embarassing, on his part. he nodded over to the lounge area of the apartment. it was all decorated out with ivory walls with one wall having antiqgue looking black wall paper, and a black lounger sofa. it looked expensive, but it was from a second hand store. seth wasnt proud, so it didnt bother him that he could afford brand new stuff all the time. he sat on the end of the leather lounger and pushed himself to the back so he could rest his head on the wall behind him. he patted the place next to him for his friend to sit and figured he should ask what she wanted to do, "so, uh, what do you fancy doing? do you wanna get pizza or something?" in the back of his mind, the butch insensitive guy in him hoped she would say, "you" to his question and then they would get naked and make sweet love on the couch. but he was fine with whatever she wanted. even if she just wanted to sit and stare into eachothers eyes talk until midnight, that was fine with him. he just wanted her company.

"we could just talk, you know? catch up and stuff?" he smiled, he kind of just wanted to talk. he needed to talk and tell her everything. and he knew gwen was too polite to say no, they should do something else, so he was happy with his suggestion. he thought though, that if they watched a movie he could do the whole stretch back and put his arm around her. but he wasnt cheesy like that, or at least, he didnt think he was. he took another disgusting sip and put his glass on the floor, out of site. gwen would forget he had a glass too and not realise he wasnt drinking it. he pulled the sleeves of his long black sweater over his hands, like kids do, and raised it to his face. it was like he was protecting himself. he smiled from behind his hand and realised that if he didnt stop being so, uh, pathetic? that gwen would ask what was going on and why he was being so weird. and he was. so he coughed away the weirdness and sat forward, spreading his legs a little, like men do, and resting his arms on his knees. he needed to show he was comfortable with her, because that was the truth, and eventually tell her he liked her. he couldnt stop thinking about what would happen. and he was so desperate to tell her that he didnt even realise that he said what he did out loud, "because, well, i have something to tell you." his eyes flared open and he bit his lip before slamming his mouth shut. mistake, big mistake seth. now he had to tell her. he would wait a minute though, he wasnt one to rush into things. however it wouldnt seem that way, given he had just pretty much told her he was in love with her.

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so the post is complete and is made up of 996 words. the post is closed to gwen / dayna . seth is wearing this and hes looking fly. the lyrics are from ellie goulding. just to let you know, seth is such an awkward puppy.

[gwen]

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this post is tagged for seth harper aka jack and this post is complete, and it meets all the requirements with 1,011 words. gwen is looking like fly chick wearing this. these graphics are by dayna and the lyrics are by the artist we call mario. notes: i think that this post was kind of lame. but i think you can squeeze something out of it. you're jack. xD

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gwen didn't drink, so the fact that he had busted the wine out was a little weird to her. besides that the fact that they were best friends and he should have probably known that she avoided the alcohol. it had been offered to her many times, and it wasn't a moral thing, because she had always tasted whatever was offered to her, and she was not about to sip on a nasty drink that would completely change her personality for a night, and the next morning having her wake up puking all over the place. coca cola, pepsi, apple juice, or water were just fine for her. hm, wasn't wine for special ocassions? like birthdays, anniversaries, christmas....for dates? if only this was a date, gwen's life would be complete. she rolled her eyes at him playfully. there would be no reason for him to want to pop her bubble. right? a bubble for gwen was like a corner to an emo kid. when she hugged him she just smiled to herself, she knew that he couldn't see him, half of her face was burried in his chest. she loved hugs from everybody, but she loved him particulary from seth. he always smiled nice for her, and he was soft, and large. she liked hugging guys that were significantly taller than her. sometimes she hated behind short, but she felt like he could protect her, being so small next to him.

she watched as he took a sip of his wine, and she couldn't help but look at his face and wait for a reaction to the bitter taste, she hoped he wouldn't like it, because she really didn't want to drink it. studying his face she noticed that he probably didn't care for it. she grabbed one of the glasses he had poured, but before bringing it to her lips and sniffed the dark red contents. it didn't even smell nice. why did rich people always want to drink wine? it was grape juice, which didn't smell good either, but it got you tipsy. other than wine she knew sophisticated people drank champagne, which to her looked like pee. she had a problem drinking or eating anything that looked like something that would come out of a human body...or any other type of body. meat was the only exception. she set the glass of wine back down on the counter. rejected. she moved over to the lounge area with seth. she loved his decorating, and his couch. it was an elegant vintage type of style. her apartment was decorated with all sorts of vintage pieces as well. it was with old victorian and old hollywood inspired. lots of pastel and gold. it all looked so expensive, the only expensive thing in her house was her piano. what did she want to do..."a pizza sounds great actually, i'm starving. i'm surprised you haven't heard my stomach grumbling yet..." once they started getting into their best friend antics and what not, she would forget she was hungry. spending time was seth was more important to her than eating. "i'll do whatever you're up to." it had a little perverted underlying meaning to it. gwen was innocent, a virgin, and she didn't know much about sex. she knew seth had had sex before, and she was pretty sure that she would have sex with him if he offered. do you know how long she'd gone without a boyfriend because she was so hung up on him?! a pretty damn long time.

sitting next to him on the couch she crossed her legs and rested her hands on her exposed thighs. his apartment was way too quiet for her. usually there was music or the TV was on for a little noise, even if they were just talking the background noise was nice. she knew that her apartment was neve quiet even when she was alone. although she was one of those types of people that sang nearly 24/7, she probably even sang in her sleep. an alternative to talking in your sleep. "that'd be nice. i'm sure so much has been happening in each other lives that we have missed out on." she had always regretted leaving him in high school. she wanted to be a part of every part of his life. when he put his sleeves over his hands she couldn't help but smile. he looked like a small child, kind of vulnerable. he was cute in his skinny jeans and mickey mouse sweatshirt. her heart kind of sunk into her stomach when he let out his serious "i have something to tell you." she could have almost shit herself. "ohmygod are you pregnant?...i mean did you get somebody pregnant?...are you gay?" all of these different possibilities and scenearios ran through her mind. her eyes were wide about the pregnant part, but squinted and concerned when she asked if he was gay. had he given up on men after his last girlfriend had cheated on him? because if he was gay, she would totally be willing to change his mind. "that was rude to ask. um...what do you want to tell me?" although she hoped that he would say that he liked her, she highly doubted it. how long had she waited for those words to come out of his mouth? three or four years. she just assumed be shot.

she swallowed, she felt tears coming to her eyes as the next sceneario came into mind. "wait...are you getting back with your exgirlfriend?" she made a fake fun with her two fingers and brought them to her head, and then fakely pulled the trigger. this was the problem with gwen, she talked excessively and never wanted to be the last to know about anything. so she tried to guess what was coming before he could say anything to shock her. "there are way better girls out there for you seth." she looked over at him and then looked down at her legs. "i'll shut up. go on....i promise i'll be quiet."

[seth]

seth noticed that gwen had come over to the couch without her drink. which made him relax more. well, not relax. but it made him more comfortable. at least she was drinking that crap. it was horrible. "im sorry. the wine is horrible." he pulled a face to show what he meant, the face he had kept in before when he had taken a sip of the horrible liquid. he didnt understand how people could drink something with such a bitter taste. he would offer to go and get them so different drinks in a minute. juice or something, his fridge was full to the brim of fresh orange juice. with bits. he loved it like that best. alcoholic drinks like wine made seth want to not drink at all. but he enjoyed the fruitier drinks, like WKD and bacardi breezer. they werent very manly drinks, but they were very, very, tasty. and they also didnt make you get too drunk too quickly, which was good. seth wasnt good when he was drunk. nope, he disliked being drunk as he couldnt control himself or his senses as well as he could if he was sober. he also got really hungry and would east literally anything. actually, he was hungry now so was happy to hear gwen was too. he nodded and added 'get pizza menu' to his imagniary to-do list. pizza would bring the formality of this occasion down anyway, right? wine, seth decided, was a little too much for a chat and catch up. not for a date though. but this wasnt a date, seth didnt think. he hadnt told her how he felt yet, it couldnt be a date if the feelings werent mutual.

gwen was so easy going. and seth liked that. he knew she was talented, and in his opinion talent deserved respect. but there was none of that 'im better than you' business in their friendship. they were equal. in almost everything. seth was much taller. but he liked that too, it made him feel like he could protect gwen. like a boyfriend man should. and he was a man. he just couldnt be a man right at this very moment. a man would say 'hey baby, lets bang' or something just as vulgar. but, if they would ever get together in the bedroom, he wanted things to be perfect. just like gwen, just like she deserved. he couldnt help but laugh out loud at gwens guesses as to what he had said, stupidly, that he had to tell her. he shook his head with a fake serious face and occasionally said no when he could get a word in edge ways. she was a drama queen. and very talkative. it kind of made up for seth, who was a little quieter than gwen and the rest of their friends really. when she asked if he was gay he stopped shaking his head. "yes gwen. im gay. im in love with graham. i dont know what to do, im just so. i dont know." towards the end of his fake confession a broad smile spread across his face. it was too easy to trick gwen. he didnt doubt she would believe him. and that made him laugh more. so he was laughing. quite a lot. surely that would make her realise he was joking? but what happened next really surprised him. in a good way more than a bad way.

he noticed gwens eyes becoming watery. shit, he had upset her. "no, gwen, i was joking, im not, oh..." she was upset at the thought of him getting back with his ex girlfriend. he knew that she had hurt him, but shed never done anything to gwen that he could think of. or that he knew of. he didnt think theyd met much. they werent friends or anything like that. he watched her put the fake gun to her head and his blank expression changed to a semi smile. a kind of, youre too cute smile. he nodded and liften his hand off of his knee. he moved across to gwens small hands and wrapped his fingers around the one closest to him, letting their hands fall back onto her thigh. he hoped that wasnt inappropraite. "i know there are, thats uh, kinda what i want to talk to you about." he let his head drop slightly, he looked down to the floor and just breathed for a while. he pouted and bit his lip with nerve. come on seth. he sighed and looked up, but not at gwen, he just looked straight ahead and side again. he was trying to muster up the courage to tell her. well, he had to tell her know. there were no two ways about it. he had gotten himself into this mess, now it was time to tell her whether she felt the same or not.

"look, gwen. ive known you so long. it feels like forever. and you know i love you so much, yeah? i value your friendship so much, more than anyone else. what im trying to say is, it killed me when you left. but i didnt realise then." he turned to gwen, his eyes were pleading with her pretty face, "but i know now. and, gwen, i think i like you. like like you. you know? as in, i think im falling in love with you." he was shocked with himself, that he had said it so easy in the end. in fact, he wanted to continue. he couldnt tell whether or not gwen was uncomfortable now with the two of them. he began to gently stroke her hand with his thumb without realising. totally in a non sexual way. though he wouldnt mind if she thought it was. "youre so talented and youre a beatiful girl. i dont know how you havnt already got a boyf... why youre single. it amazes me." he sighed again before looking down to his feet. "youre perfection, gwen."

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so the post is complete and is made up of 1002 words. the post is closed to gwen / dayna . seth is wearing this and hes looking fly. the lyrics are from ellie goulding. just to let you know, awww. hes said it. i love these kids.

[gwen]

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this post is tagged for seth harper aka jack and this post is complete, and it meets all the requirements with 900 words. gwen is looking like fly chick wearing this. these graphics are by dayna and the lyrics are by the artist we call mario. notes: all you need is love, love. love is all you need.

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seth really did know how to trick gwen. she was so gullable and could be tricked so easily. as a kid she believed the most bizzare things because she was so easy to persuade. like that there really was a monster under her bed, and that it ate socks and pepporonni pizza, and that if you did not feed it often enough it would attack you in the middle the night and suck out your soul. so gwen obeyed the monster underneath her bed and fed it pepporonni pizza as often as she could get it, and then her room would start to stink, and her parents had a long talk with her about how monsters didn't exist. so anytime someone told her something out of the ordinary that could possible trick her, she became extremely angry with them. gwen hung around gay people often, being involved in the theatre most of her life and hanging around on broadway performing, she knew a gay person when she saw one. although she never imagined seth as gay, it was possible. so when he said that he was in a love with graham, she felt her dreams partly shatter, because all of her hope was lost now! her mouth hung open in shock and sadness, but mostly shock for the sake of hiding her feelings. but when he started laughing her mouth slammed shut and her eyebrows furrowed together, and she slapped his leg, like a girl would, very painless, and let out a chuckle of her own. "you jerk."

she loved that he could put up with her craziness and talkativeness and her need for attention. not many people could except bandit, seth, and her parents. that was why had the lack of friends that she did in high school. as she continued on with her scenarios, she was glad to find him not telling her to shut the fuck up! but just listening, and confirming or not confirming whatever she said when he could. god he was so perfect. he was even laughing at her, which she did not find offensive at all, because she was pretty ridiculous. finally when she vowed to shut up, she was interested in what he had to say. he wasn't getting back with his exgirlfriend, and that pleased her. although she really hadn't ever met the broad, she knew she hated her, for multiple reasons. she hurt seth, but mostly she hated her because she had seth in the first place, and what airhead would ever let him go! ugh. how frustrating. now with his new worlds she thought he had a new girlfriend. was it bandit? oh god it was bandit wasn't it? she bit her bottom lip and nodded at him, her eyes squinted in concentration. it took him forever to spit out what he needed to. the suspense was killing her.

now she was either getting dumped or confessed to, or he knew that she loved him and it creeped him out. well she wasn't getting dumped because they had never been together. he like liked her. that was such elementary school talk, but that's how they were. she sat up as straight as she could, her mouth half way hanging open, she really could not believe what was happening right now. and the word love made her head explode. her mind was blank and she could not think at all. she stared at him, happy as could be without letting it show. she was perfection to him, and that's what gwen needed in life. a guy that thought she was perfect. because she thought she was perfect too. they had so much in common. he looked down at his feet, and that's when she knew that he did not know that she was madly in love him, and had been forever. maybe he didn't know because she had just always loved him, and he didn't know any other way she could be around him. that was probably exactly it.

she scooted closer to him on the couch, to show him that she was no rejecting his feelings. she sat close enough to him that her knee touched his leg. she kept her hand in his, and leaned her body closer to him. "you just made my life seth." she smiled at him warmly, and waited to speak again, giving him a chance to look up at her. "i've thought you were perfect since the very first moment i met you. you were really the only true friend i ever had, and i couldn't help but fall in love you with you. you're so kind and respectful towards me." hopefully she was not creeping him out. she took a breath. "i've only ever stayed single because in my crazy head, i had hope that i would be with you one day. and i had thought i made so blatently obvious that i liked you." she chuckled. "but i guess not. i would have told you i liked you if i didn't think you would think i was creepy and then run away." they would be perfect together, she already knew it. were they suppose to kiss now? something she had waited to do for several years. "we would be cute together seth." she reassured him with a look suggesting that he should ask her to be his girlfriend, like, rght now.

[seth]

there had definitely been a lot of jaw dropping moments tonight. it was as if the pair of them were taking turns in opening their mouths as wide as they could. it was seths turn now. he couldnt actually believe what he was hearing. it made him smile though. although he couldnt smile. his mouth was too wide. he was shocked, that was for sure. he just listened to what she said. she thought he was perfect too. they could be perfect with eachother. he was fine with that. they would be great being perfect together. he was far from perfect though. he had been with his ex girlfriend without seeing she was a nasty piece of lean, probably anorexic meat. he had had sex with someone he didnt love, like he always said you shouldnt. he should have waited. hed made plenty of mistakes in his time. what she was saying made it sound like she had loved him all the time hed known her. he doubted that though, surely he would have noticed? he usually did notice when someone liked him. either that or, like gwen had just said, she really had loved him since they first met. in which case he wouldnt have noticed any different behaviour from her. heck, he would probably have noticed her not liking him. although he hadnt known she liked him anyway. he shut his mouth and smiled. he wasnt sure if there were tears of happiness forming in his eyes, or if the room was simply steaming up and his eyes were getting condensation on them. either way, when he rubbed his eyes his hand had water on it. he shifted closer to her, so that the whole sides of their bodies were touching now.

he had always felt close to her and that he could be close to her, but now he felt it even more. they had just been very open with eachother, he didnt know what would happen now. he shook his head slowly when she explained how she had thought her fondness of him was so obvious. he hadnt noticed at all. he laughed at the brunette girl in front of him. "even if i didnt like you, i mean, like that, i would never run away from my best friend." and that was the truth. he wasnt mean. he thought about what he would have said if she had told him before he had figured out his true feelings. he would have probably said something like 'its alright, i dont hate you. i dont think youre weird. its just something we will learn to deal with. im not leaving you because of this.' it was just a good thing that he hadnt have had to say that. she might have stopped liking him and then when he realised he liked her and they were having this conversation he would be sad and disappointed. and she would say the same to him and there would be embarassment all around. speaking of which, the night hadnt been full of embarassment after all. he was glad. he nodded and smiled a little smile. "you know, i think we would." he wasnt sure if he should ask her to be his girlfriend. he didnt really know how it went seeing as him and his ex had just started making out. "so i guess youre my girlfriend now?" he shook his head, what if she didnt want to. "i mean, do you want to be my girlfriend?" he smiled and held her other hand with his other hand too.

now they were pretty much together he was sure they should kiss. he didnt want to intrude though. he leant forward though, ignoring any feeling that was telling him to stop. he looked gwen in the eyes, he wanted to make sure she wanted this like he did. "gwen. im going to kiss you now." he laughed at himself in his head. damn, you didnt say stuff like that. you just did it. real men would just do it. but he was beginning to realise he liked not being a real man. he liked being a gentleman. and he really hoped gwen would like to be his gentlewoman. he leant closer still. he hadnt sensed any sort of uncomfortableness or rejection from gwen. he had wanted this for some time now. he would be lying if he said he had wanted this, with gwen, his whole life. but now he wished he had. he wished they had gotten together in high school. but then when she left to come to new york the pain would have been even worse than it was. his lips touched gwens and he closed his eyes. he let go of one of her hands and moved it onto her hip. she was slim and lovely and perfect. he smiled through the kiss. he was happy, he was really quite happy. he broke from the kiss and smiled, "again?" he asked, hoping the answer would be yes. and hoping that gwen would just kiss him without him having to ask. tonight was turning out well, perfect, perhaps.

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so the post is complete and is made up of 860 words. the post is closed to gwen / dayna . seth is wearing this and hes looking fly. the lyrics are from ellie goulding. just to let you know, i wish stuff like this happened irl, ahaha.

[gwen]

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this post is tagged for seth harper aka jack and this post is complete, and it meets all the requirements with 995 words. gwen is looking like fly chick wearing this. these graphics are by dayna and the lyrics are by the artist we call mario. notes: haha, this is what we call a ramble post. (: but they're cute.

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gwen already knew that they would be super great together. even though she had liked him when they were both almost four years younger than they were now, neither of them changed very much over the time they had been a part. gwen had always known who her true self was. she was the career oriented girl that had a natural talent, loved to perform, and was extremely selfish except when her friends and family needed her support for protection. she had known who she was for a really long time, and she took some credit for the person that seth had become. when she met him he was a sad soul, following the dreams of his father, trying to become a star athlete and make everyone proud, and if gwen hadn't found him that one lonely day in the auditorium, he would be off playing college ball some where with cheerleaders and other pretty tan, bleach blonde girls hanging on his arm. that didn't sound like a bad life at all, at least for a guy, but that was not who seth wanted to be. he was meant to be a performer. the world and the broadway chorus needed his voice. gwen was the angel that had given it to them. now she was being thanked with success and opportunity. oh and the boyfriend of her dreams. or soon to be boyfriend at least.

she listened to him intently, which wasn't new, because she paid attention to only him ever when he was in the room, even if he wasn't talking to her. it sounded like it was best that she had waited, and tortured herself for those several years of desire and longing. their friendship probably would have lasted, but gwen would have definitely at least tried to move on. she waited because she did not like rejection, and quite frankly she wasn't too fond of it. she was talented, and talented people did not get rejected! and plus rejection for a job was totally different from rejection in emotion. and sadness was not a good look for gwen either. 'you know, i think we would', her heart beat sped up and her heart was racing, and she was excited, and she couldn't help but grin from ear to ear. she had waited so long for this moment! "i would be honored to be your girlfriend." she continued to sit tall, and she looked down at their hands, she loved his touch. was she dreaming? she needed pinched, or slapped, or something. but she wasn't going to ask him to do either of those things, she was enjoying this way too much. "this means i get to call you boyfriend now. how exciting." she couldn't wait to tell bandit, or her mother for that matter. her mother knew about her crazy girl crush, and she loved seth too.

he was leaning in and she saw the look in his eyes, so she took the initiative to do the same. she leaned in and as their faces became really close, she closed her eyes. she had kissed many people before. but it all had never meant anything. i'm not saying she's a slut, because she is the furthest thing from it. but being a part of the theatre, you have to do some things you wouldn't imagine. she had kissed many of her co-stars before, being the female lead or the female co-lead on most occassions. most of her partners were gay, thats theatre for you. so yeah her first kiss had been on stage in front of at least a hundred people or more years ago. gwen had never had a boyfriend, so technically this was her first real kiss, and it meant a lot to her. it was kind of embarassing that her first real everything was happening at nineteen. but then again, gwen was not a normal girl, no where near it. she did find it funny that he had asked to kiss her, but it was cute. they were an innocent looking pair. they were going to be the tame, perfect couple that made people gag, but only because they were jealous. when their lips parted, she wanted to sing, expressing her love for the boy she was looking at. her new boyfriend. 'again?' for once she was speechless. she nodded slightly and leaned in again. hopefully all those years of kissing gay boys on stage had done her lips some good. she'd hate for seth to think that she was a bad kisser.

she wasn't going to make out with him all night, no. even though that was what most girls in her position would have done, that was not gwen's pace or style. after having kissing him again she wrapped her arms around his arm, the one that was closest to her, and she rested her head on his shoulder. "this better not be a dream or i'm going to be very upset." she commented, sounding relaxed and serene. she let out a deep sigh. "let's watch a movie." hopefully he had one in his DVD player or there was a good one on television, because she was not willing to get off of the couch, or let him get away from her. all she wanted to do now was cuddle with her new, perfect, boyfriend and watch one of the movies they had seen a dozen times together. she wasn't sure if she was hungry anymore, it could've just been the butterflies. she grabbed for the remote, which was in front of them on his coffee table. "i don't know if i'm hungry anymore. what about you?" she looked down at the remote with her finger over the power button. "getting the phone would be too much work. i don't want you to get up and leave me now." she made sure she said it all cute so he wouldn't think, oh hey my new girlfriend is super clingy.

[seth]

being a part from gwen for so long before made seth want to just hold her for a long, long time to make up for it. they hadnt gone to prom together, so seth wanted something else perfect for them to do together. he wondered, now that they were together, whether he would have asked her to be his girlfriend on prom night, if he would have realised he had liked her way back then. he doubted it. he also wondered if they would still be together had they gotten together. he doubted it. he imagined he would be with someone else, he had never imagined himself with gwen before but now it was real it all made sense. best friends since forever, now together. forever? seth really hoped so and he had no intention of changing things for a long while. it was strange, if gwen hadnt found him that day she did and gotten him properly fond of the stage and acting and performing he might be in some college doing a sports science degree or something. he almost shuddered at the thought. now, he was here with his perfect life. and new, perfect girlfriend. he wanted nothing to change.

he smiled when gwen said she would be honoured to be his girlfriend. he hadnt realised that confessing his affection for her would make her as happy as it seemed to be doing. he nodded. she was the first girlfriend he had really liked, on a more than physical level. he knew they got on, there needed to be no awkward silences on dates or whatever when they couldnt think of anything to say. they were at ease around eachother, always had been. he would be proud to introduce her to friends of his as his girlfriend. and he was excited to see bandit and graham and everyone and tell them. he hoped they would be alright with that, i mean, two friends getting together? at the end of the day, though, there was nothing they could do now. true friends would relish the happiness of their other friends anyway, right? he really wanted to see his ex and just rub gwen in her face. although, he didnt want to use gwen for anything. he was proud of her and her talent. he had never had a super talented, lead role in a movie girlfriend before. and he nodded again, "you sure do. as long as i can call you my bitch?" he laughed, he wouldnt call her his bitch. not even in an endearing way. he couldnt find any similarities between gwen and a female dog in any way. except maybe in the mornings. hopefully he would get to remind himself what gwen was like on a morning, if she stayed tonight. he didnt want to rush into anything though, like sex or anything. he wasnt like that, truly wasnt. and anyone who thought that the ex footballer should be was stupid. he hadnt fallen for gwens body, after all. it was her personality.

although, she was a good kisser. and you cant kiss personalities. he wondered how many people she had kissed before him despite the fact she had saved herself in the hope that they would one day be an item. he didnt ask though, that would be rude and just assumed it was from kissing the guys on stage and stuff. he began to wonder if he would feel jealous, seeing her kissing her co stars. he didnt want this second kiss to end. as their lips touched he revelled in the thought that he could do this whenever he wanted now. just a little morning kiss. or a i missed you whilst you were at work kiss. or a, gwen, you mean everything to me and im really sorry that its taken me this long to realise but you really and honestly do kiss. anytime. anywhere. and although it made his chest skip a beat of sadness when their lips parted he knew he was happy deep down. he didnt want to base their relationship on just making out, although it was nice every now and again. he felt her arms wrap around his and then her head rest on his shoulder. he turned a little so he was facing her and leant over with his other arm. he slipped it under her legs and liften his girlfriend onto his lap. he kissed her head before shifting to the end of the sofa so they had the whole length to lie on. he was happy. he couldnt believe just how happy though. he had a permanent smile. he didnt think it would have gone by the morning or even tomorrow night. it would be there for as long as gwen was there, he knew it. if gwen went now, though, like she had in high school, he would be broken. it had bothered him loads back then, but now they were together and he knew exactly how he felt. he couldnt risk being hurt. he had to be sure she was staying.

"its real life baby. i promise." he unwrapped his arm from hers and put it around her shoulders so he could play with her locks of hair. hed always heard girls liked their hair being played with, and gwen was a girl. so he figured he would generalise and see if she liked it. he doubted she would tell him to stop even if she did though. "sure, ive got mean girls in. dont laugh." he laughed quietly. it was a great film, that fact can not be denied. "uh, no, not really. i had a big lunch," he hadnt, but he didnt want to move, "and yeah, it would be too much effort." he looked into her eyes and smiled, shaking his head. "never, gwen pastino, youre stuck with me." but his face dropped a little, "please dont leave me again. i know how much you mean to me now." he leant over to her, even though it was quite uncomfortable for him and place his head against hers, noses touching like eskimos. he meant it. he didnt know what he would do. he didnt want to think about it in all honesty. but if gwen left him now, it would be a sad day for seths family.

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so the post is complete and is made up of 1058 words. the post is closed to gwen / dayna . seth is wearing this and hes looking fly. the lyrics are from ellie goulding. just to let you know, haha. rambly posts are the best.

[gwen]

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this post is tagged for seth harper aka jack and this post is complete, and it meets all the requirements with 873 words. gwen is looking like fly chick wearing this. these graphics are by dayna and the lyrics are by the artist we call mario. notes: omg. i had a busy week. three more days of school!!!!! ahh!

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when gwen never came back for high school her junior year, she really did not mean to hurt anybody. it was one of those decisions of what would be best for her. leaving seth was not the best thing she could have ever done. but at the time he was just her friend- very best friend to be exact- but gwen already had her life planned out at sixteen, and if she was going to succeed in her preferred career, then she was going to have to start working for it hard, then at that tender age. sure she had been working to be the best even years before that, but the setting she was in every day did not teach her anything or push her enough to try her best. barely trying in a public high school she was the star of every mainstage play and musical. it was nice to be the star, but not if you didn't have to work for it. gwen was smart and realized that, hey i'm never going to be able to improve my skill any if i'm always considered as the best. sure that sounds concieted, but it was the truth. she knew that she was going to be hurting seth, but he was talented and severely cute, like a puppy, she figured he would be able to bounce back easily. find himself a new best friend and forget all about her. it was harder for gwen to leave seth than she had thought. even though she was attached to him, she was use to not having a friend, but having a friend that she cared about and saw every day was pretty nice. but where was she now? preforming on broadway at nineteen, and she was starring in a movie with jack bailey and natalie delaney. performing arts school did her some good. and she had scholarships to NYU majoring in musical theatre.

life had gone pretty well for her the time they were a part. she had no clue how it had gone for him. but they had ended up in the same place, thank god for that. she wondered about him often. about how he was, what he was doing, about what might have happened if she had revealed her feelings to him way back when. "you may call me a bitch, only if you are joking. otherwise i'm just going to cry." she smiled and gave a small laugh. too many people called her names for her boyfriend to be calling her names and not be joking about it. gwen wasn't very well liked, and had never been because of her 'conceited' attitude. conceited and confident are not the same thing. that was another reason why she liked seth so much; he was willing to put up with her personality, because he liked it. maybe kissing seth, she would become more use to feel of somebody elses lips on hers. maybe she would become a whole new person and attack his lips whenever she saw him for the first time in a day. she didn't know. she slipped her heels off, leaving them kicked underneath the coffee table. after that seth had scooped her up and sat her on his lap. he then began messing with her hair. she didn't say anything. people messed with her hair all of the time. it was long and always clean, the only thing she hated was when people totally messed it up. because beautiful hair like gwens did not just fix itself in the morning.

mean girls, a classic. she supressed a laugh. mean girls was back when lindsay lohan was a babe, before she went crazy and to rehab about ten times. it was great for quoting too. before she turned the television on, be began talking again, and she looked into his face. "i promise i'll never leave you again." she gave him a warm smile with genuine eyes. she was settled in new york. she had school and work and leaving him just wasn't an option. "i have waited for you for too long to just leave." she made sure she added. because it was so true. she but some sprirt into their little eskimo kiss with her barbra streisand nose that so many people made fun of her for. you know the girl from dirty dancing had a funny nose, got a rhinoplasty and had trouble finding work again. seth liked her nose too, or it just didn't bother him. she smiled at him some more, yeah it wasn't going away. she turned the television and the DVD player on and pressed play on the mean girls menu. gwen liked movies and all, but it was just a background noise filler, and if they ever had an awkward silence, they could just stare at the TV. "...i was wondering, seth. what were the last two years of high school like for you? when i wasn't around..." she looked down at the buttons on the remote control. "were you the football star, musical phenomenon..did you have the ladies all over you?" she chuckled to herself. because now she would be the only lady that mattered. "what about prom? did you go?"