drunken stupor.

[alex]

This was stupid, she never really thought she'd end up here. Sitting on a curb, in front of a club, after about six or seven drinks. Yeah, she was drunk, very much so actually, and her head was spinning. Why did she do this? Pretty much because she got a slap in the face, and from her best friend nonetheless. Yeah, she liked her and yeah it was a pretty big secret. Constantly, she was hiding it and working her way around it, but she had no idea that she made it something so obvious. It hurt so bad, knowing that was not the best way for Aalina to find out, and all Alex could think of doing was running. So, that's just what she did, ran from it all. She hated situations when she was put on the spot, so she escaped it all. She went to a club and got wasted, well she was still okay right now, but slowly slipping into a more drunken state. It seemed that all she could get lately is rejection, and with this one, it sorta hurt just as bad as when Desi stopped talking to her, she saw a repeat of that happening. Everything was just scaring her, and she didn't know what to do.

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[brie]

These kinds of nights seemed to be happening more often for the poor girl. Undeserved drama, all somehow involving herself. She knew she brought a lot on herself, but that night she was honestly confused about how everything had happened. Bijou. She sighed, trying to block out the events of the night. Being questioned over Jedidiah wasn't even the worst part, but it did lead to some revelations she had been blind to. Or chose to ignore. Was it too much to just ask for a friend? Without having to worry about if they liked you or if you liked them? Who knew how long Alex had had feelings for her, but Aalina was more upset that she hadn't told her. Then again, there were plenty of guys throughout her life that she had feelings for and never expressed. It was a confusing situation, one that Beej nor Rockie had made easier. Her mistake was staying in the chat, but, honestly she had no clue what else to do. Being left to her own devices, she would have just gone out and gotten shit faced, or found some weed; definitely not from the guy down the hall. So she acted as if nothing had happened. But now, she was making her way downtown, to find her best friend that had decided to just go out and get drunk. If she wanted to be honest with herself, it was probably her fault. She hadn't exactly handled the situation with the best care, but, what did Alex expect? Her to confess her heart that she, too, had feelings? She couldn't lie just to make her feel better. She knew she had gone through a few broken hearts, and she didn't want to hurt her as well, but she couldn't lie to her. Pulling up outside of the club Alex was at, she placed her car in park, leaving it running as she got out, looking for her friend. "Alex?"

[alex]

Nothing else really matter right about now, she just wanted to get everything over and down with, meaning... she wanted to be alone. She spend a good two hours by herself, drinking her heart away and hoping it would cure the pain. It was really... well... she wanted something she couldn't have, and that pain would never go away. Aalina probably hated her right now, pretty much never wanted to see her again, and Alex didn't blame her. But when the female said she would come to get here, it made her think there was some sort of glimmer of hope. Maybe Lina had some sort of feelings for her, who was she kidding? She was getting herself too worked up about all this, and would probably have crashing feelings when she was rejected again. She sighed, putting her head in her hands and rubbing her eyes, feeling like shit. She was starting to sober up, not really... she would say that though. Hearing her name, she looked up and around, wondering where the source was. That was when she saw Aalina, which made a bright smile come to her face. Slowly standing up, wobbling a bit, she waved at the female. "Lee-lee! Here! She spoke up, smiling at her. So she really did come, this was nice... to have someone to count on.

[brie]

Aalina never did handle situations as well as she should have. It was obvious that night, and having others watch it unfold just made it worse. She just didn't know how to react to her best friend having feelings for her that went beyond friendship. Lina had never really stopped to think about it, but, now that she had had time to think back, the writing was on the wall. She was starting to feel guilty, thinking that perhaps she had led her on or gave her the impression that she felt the same. In reality, she had no idea how she felt. Sure, there were those drunken nights where she would find her curiosity peaking, or the regular experimentation that most young girls went through. She wasn't one to define love, but to say that she herself could love a girl was unmarked territory. She would do best to be able to keep a stable relationship, without trying to confuse it with genders. But, then, maybe that was her issue. Tavin seemed to be the only guy that wanted anything from her, and that was usually just sex. Hearing Alex's drunken speech, she turned in her direction, offering a small smile. Soon she was standing next to her, supporting her, one arm around her waist. "Come on," She motioned to the car, wishing to not have a public scene that night.

[alex]

Alex never spoke up about anything, actually she was pretty much to herself all the time. If it wasn't Rae or Lina, she was pretty much going to give you a fake answer. She always had Honor there to catch her, and at one point, she had Desiree too, but those days were gone now. It scared her, how alone she was feeling and how she didn't have anyone to count on anymore. Sure, she knew that Aalina didn't have feelings for her, those little moment they had when she was drunk were just well... just that, drunken feelings. She didn't want things to happen this way, she just... wanted to keep them hidden forever. Feeling an arm go around her waist, she flinched a bit, not enjoying the sensation of another's touch. "I'm sorry." Was all she could really say, she didn't know what else to say and she wanted things to be normal again. Now she figured other people got to Aalina before she did, she didn't actually care about her and Tavin, but knew, Tavin was after all a good friend of hers. Plus, she set him and Andrea up, which she still pushed for. "I... I'm sorry." She kept saying, pretty much clinging to the blonde girl. Flashes from cameras already swarming them went off, causing Alex to whine. "No..." She sighed, trying to bury her face in Aalina's neck.

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[brie]

Aalina shook her head as Alex apologized, wishing she would stop. She hadn't done anything besides get herself drunk, but so had Aalina plenty if times before. She blocked out the incident that had taken place earlier, right now focusing on escaping the prying eyes of cameras and fans of Alex's. "Just come on," she whispered as she felt her friend bury her head into the nook of her neck. Walking forward, she avoided the cameras as much as possible, which wasn't easy. Being such close friends with a pop star had it's perks, but it also had it's downsides, this being one. "Come on, man, move." She pushed her way past one photographer, only to be met with more. Finally making it to her car, she quickly unlocked it, doing her best to help Alex in. She had known Alex long enough to know how to deal with the paparazzi, but typically, Alex wasn't drunk. Taking a deep breath, she moved around her car to the driver side, quickly slipping in before jamming the key into the car, bringing the car to life. "Next time, can you get drunk at your place?" Aalina breathed out, flashing her lights to get the small crowd to move out of her way. They were just stressing her out more, and if she wasn't careful, she'd only end up taking it out on Alex.

[alex]

It seemed like there was a lot on both their minds right now, and slowly but surely, Alex was starting to sober up. She'd realize what she did, and she'd come to the conclusion that Aalina hated her. Actually, she was thinking that right now and knew she shouldn't be. But how was she supposed to feel, when Lina rejected her right off the bat and now she didn't know what to do with herself. Drinking was her escape, well last time, cutting herself had been the escape. At least she didn't resort to that, because she knew better by now. "Yes..." Was all she responded with, still feeling like shit about this whole thing. The alcohol was making her feel worse, and making her feel like an asshole. Once she was seated in the car, she curled up a bit, head resting on the side of the door, staring out the window, not daring to look at Lina. Feeling the car jerk to life, she looked over at Lina. "I didn't think you'd come." She whispered, feeling like the female could of just left her. But, in her heart, she knew her blonde best friend couldn't do such a thing.

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